I try to be fairly transparent here and have mentioned this in my monthly letter - my anxiety went through the roof once the kids started on-line school again in August. There were several weeks in a row where I was fighting to get through - like legit clawing my way out. The strategies I mention in the video, I was using on the daily.

But keep in mind - detachment is for YOU. It’s for you to gain clarity, to get more connected to yourself, and to truly see - how much effort is he going to put into the relationship.

Stay the course.

How are we hanging in? It’s officially Fall which makes my heart so so happy. Love me some Fall.

Embracing partial solutions actually makes me feel like I can breathe - it gives me freedom.

The key is to be aware of the old coping mechanism cropping back up and to course-correct as soon as possible.

So often we give others power in our lives that only belong to us.

The decision has been made, the "no" is out there. And yet, I don't have total clarity in what God asked me to do because I haven't landed yet. My feet are not on solid ground. I can't look back with that 20/20 hindsight and say - "ah! This is why!"

I just can't believe that we are coming up on 13 years into this process and there is still work to do. Not the ugly slow work of the first three or so years but work none-the-less.

I wish I could say that I knew exactly what it looked like to be grounded before Jason and I started this process some eleven and a half years ago, but I didn't.