And when I am in the wilderness, it’s nice to go back and see His faithfulness.

Think of it as issues we’ve decided to dust off and put on the coffee table.

Discussing the early days of our recovery process.

Because whether your marriage continues or whether it ends, God wants us all to be healthy and whole.

You see, although He asked me to let go of my career and follow after His plan for my life, He hasn’t ignored my heart.

I’d just want to tell her that she is worth more. That she is loved. And that a different life is waiting for her when she is ready.

When you are married to a man with a sordid sexual past, who by the grace of God is living a life of integrity, life changes forever.

Really, I think complete surrender involves trusting God, having faith that His plan is better than mine, and believing the truth rather than hearing the lies.

I realized how precious it is for us to come to a place of true heart-break for others.

It can be incredible to sit in the room and watch stories unfold, light bulbs go off and hearts change forever.

So I sat there this morning. And as the minutes ticked by, I realized there was an even bigger and better reason I was there.

But God tells me that it’s good. He made me this way. He made me with a sensitive heart that breaks all too easily.

It would be me doubting God’s plan and in fear, taking over.

And I realize that indeed, the wilderness has the potential to be the most powerful place for us.

And this is the truth: whether your reality is messy or pretty, He loves us just the same.

It’s time to cinch up my seat belt a little tighter. And lean on God a little more. And not carry the weight of the world.

So, Jason and I sat on the couch, legs touching. Photo album spread out over them.

The first of several kitchen conversations. Enjoy!