Really, I think complete surrender involves trusting God, having faith that His plan is better than mine, and believing the truth rather than hearing the lies.

I realized how precious it is for us to come to a place of true heart-break for others.

So I sat there this morning. And as the minutes ticked by, I realized there was an even bigger and better reason I was there.

It would be me doubting God’s plan and in fear, taking over.

And I realize that indeed, the wilderness has the potential to be the most powerful place for us.

And when I start to recount my blessings and give thanks, my heart is more in tune with His.

I believe that I allowed Christ to heal parts of the painful journey. But I also allowed myself to fill some of those voids.

it’s when times are tough that we are more susceptible to the lure of false gods. Not when all is well, but when life is difficult.

So, I surrender this fear. This reality. Indeed, I have no control over Jason’s actions. I have no control over God’s plan. And isn’t that really the best way it should be?

The sad house with the large rooms and empty spaces. Kinda like our hearts. Empty.

Holding on to the secret not only is damaging to you. It’s also damaging to your family. Your marriage. Your relationship with God.

Acknowledging that God has more for us here on this earth than living in secrets and shame and darkness.

If I had to do it over, I’d choose him.

I’m not going to pray, I don’t trust You. If You allowed something like this to happen to me, who knows what else You would allow to happen.

Because its God’s story. It’s hope. It’s what each man in that audience can have. It’s redemption for Jason and I.

This reminds me of where I was after Jason disclosed his ugly truth and my world came crashing down on me.

I’ve had some really ugly moments over the last couple of weeks. Feeling sorry for myself, selfish, insecure, wanting my “old life” back.

As I looked at the frail men and women on their walkers or in their wheelchairs, I realized…they wouldn’t get a do over on this earth.

I think what I have loved the most about letting go is this: giving God space to work in my life! My eyes are wide open today and yearning for His touch in my every day.

“Trust me, Follow me, Hold on tight, its going to be a ride.”